So in the last week I have had some really good ups and some really good downs.  I have to say the really good up for me this week was finding out that I get money from my school and that it is large sum. I can now get a car. Cheap car but a car in the least. That was some really good news. Now I passed my test at Sprint this week and I have one more to take I feel really good about it. Even though Friday was a pretty bad day for me.

As some of you know I was supposed to move this weekend. I chose not too. Not becuase I want to stay with the husband but because he is leaving just like I thought he would. I have been fighting him for a week to help me clean up some of the bigger messes in the house. Not that we are pigs just starting working and all hard to find a happy medium for myself and getting everything done. Anyways he is going on the road to truck driving school. So I have signed him off the lease and fianlly got him to do some things around the house.  A lot more has to be done. I am just going to have to do it myself and take the whole weekend to to do it and make sure that it is up to par again. Not that its like really bad just laundry all over and stuff now got the kitchen and the bathroom cleaned so I am not to really worried about how much more I have to do.  So come hell or high water I better be in this apartment by myself and it better be on the 22nd...

One thing that happened this week is I had an old classmate delete me from her facebook. I dont say much to her because she is always saying how wonderful her life is and how great her kid is and how wonderful everything really is for her. At times it even feels like she is rubbing it all in your face.  But then again what else is FB for? Well, in the last week I have been really down and one day everyone on FB was saying how they question their friends or how they question their family etc etcn So I said something along the lines of how if you question they are questioning you too which is true. Well, she blasted me on FB. I did not know it was me however, I commented on it and said something along the lines that I deleted a lot of people this week because of it. So she posted that she was deleting me and after deleting and blocking me she continued the converstaion about me. The only reason that I know this because I have alerts on my phone and every single time somethng was said I got an alert. This went on for about an hour until the phone caught up with the delete and block. I was just kind of like dumb founded. How immature could she be? She could have emailed me and said this is about you. I am going to delete you. It would have been no big deal. But the immature actions that she displayed might have made her look cute and funny, but in the long run she is going to be the one that will be sorry when people start to see how she really treats people.

But one thing that still really hurts though I have come to terms with the fact that this one, just this one person is just too immature to handle my husband. I thought she was a friend. I really did but everytime she has a chance to see me. She skips. She says that it is because she is just so stressed that she cant handle all of it. Well, hell is she the only one stressed out? I see several of us stopping in our stressfull lives to help or talk about what it is that she may need help with. I just feel that she is not really being a good friend. That she is being selfish and yes we all are at times with our time and our complaining and whatever else some more than others, me being guilty in this just as well if not more than most of my friends. But I find that the lack of friendship makes me feel even more upset. I am just supposed to trust but how can I when I am turned over because company is intolerable? And if it is because of me and I complain to much or bitch whatever you want to say...however dont you do the same? Is there not times I just want to  avoid your personal converstaion bubble because you are bringing me down so bad? Yes! Yes! Several times but I dont leave the room and I dont complain about it. Now I might vent to a friend about it later but I will still come see you and I will still make sure that if you called me in the middle of the night needing me, that my time is made for you. I am not so sure that you will do the same?

So my week other than making a new friend that...well not a friend I guess. Moving on from that one. I hope this helps clear the air with somethings and I hope that I am not so grumpy. Do me a favor and dont try and guess who people are like some of you try to do. This blog is not about doing the gossip. If you are using it for gossip I will know soon enough. So the extra emails I get of "who are you talking about?" and "is this so and so?" I am not going to tell you. Get over that part as well. Well thank you to all those that enjoy my blogs remember you can always join as a follower and not have to write a blog!!! Thank you again.