Does a broken heart still beat?

It is hard writing a post you really cant talk about. But I can write about how I feel. I feel like total and utter crap. My brain is bogged down so much with everything. Did I really start this I ask myself? Or did I really just have enough of not getting to feel the love that I needed to feel. As I held my neice this afternoon I cried because I knew that if he was still here she would never be with me here in my home. I knew that the things that happened this weekend would never have happened. It is so strnage how one person kept away so many people in my life that I really needed. Tears roll down my face now as I type. Nothing much I can say as to why yet. I do know that at one time I did love him so much that I would have followed him into the dark. But now I wont go near him in light. They do say that your darkest hours happen in the light. Dead on the inside breathing for pure health reasons. I feel dead. I should be, as many pieces as my heart is broken into it cant really beat anymore. Does a broken heart still beat?